ANGER .

My throat has a knot.
Words are thrusting around in my mind like a fucking tornado.
I hate the fucking cards life has dealt me.
If I could i`d shred them...then burn them...and then throw them in the deepest volcano I could possibly find.


My mirage is so perfect no one can see past this smile.
Even the genuity in my eyes convinces everyone, ignore these negative influences.
I'm not.
EVERY fucking night I cry. Every night.
It`s not fair. I can`t keep doing this and FURTHERMORE i don`t fucking deserve it.
I feel delirious, od mysterious.....like there can`t be no other human being who functions like this.
Everywhere I hurt and no band-aid can patch this shit up.
I think too much that I want to be with God, leave this world behind where no one shows me real love.
Where I can see the tears of emotion or feel fingertips of longing or just even a fucking simple meaningful kiss.....I`ve never felt a meaningful kiss.


I want someone to want me....hold me and never let go as there soul is felt all over my skin from the tears of happiness...baby let our souls mend together as our tears are mixed together because we are utterly happy together.... i don`t think i`ll ever get there......

i just dont care no more.

i can preach all day about the wisdom i have acquired....but life so unkind to me and my words fall on deaf ears....i`m just tired of talking...when no ONE EVER FUCKING APPRECIATES WHAT I SAY......i dunno anymore......I JUST DONT FUCKING KNOW.