Leah Ashley Who ?

I try to be patient and not anticipate your arrival,
One day i'm high on life and the next i'm suicidal.
The only drug I need is what you provide,
Your special touch would be the ultimate override.
But instead these fakers, manipulators, they plague my life,
I'm confused, misconstrued, tired of these simple, basic dudes.
I'm exhausted of the sleepless, lonely nights tossing and turning,
I'm learning that I have to fall in love with me and solely me.
So that he, can appreciate my beauty.
Life seems to be cutting short and spiritually I am being called,
And to be gone before I have ever been loved, I am seriously appalled.
I'd miss his kiss and the bliss from the warm and supple touch of his lips,
The caress and the sex that sends my spirit outside my body for a couple of seconds.
But I feel so far from that...
because I won't just fall in love with anyone.
So am I destined to fall in love with me?
Or am I destined to live out MY dream?
The future is unknown and quite honestly i'm scared,
but I'm sure and secure knowing my love will always be out there,
I'm Ready.


3-22-11 <3.

P.S. I love this poem. And another thought, I'm trying to get back into my old stress relievers because I really do miss them (singing and writing) Especially singing though. There's something about expressing an emotion through a melody that is so beautiful to me, so yeah :]