Poemmmm. Tiger.

I am consciously subliminal
Evoking responses in you to let me know if youre cynical.
Im the silent tiger
Ripping you to shreds when you thought I was dead, but im very much alive.
This halo takes me to and fro those dark places
Such a sweetheart deeds done undeservable and you hang me with my own yellow orb
Back from the dark I will smile blood trickling down my head and the concrete absorbs,
eager for my body to spill out the rest but see I do detest.
You lied to me, using me as your buddy in all actuality,
youre the enemy.
Lynching me with my purity, you just made me stronger.
No I do not complain I speak truth,
Bold enough to pour wisdom into reality, instead of ignoring this sad brutality,
and your just mad.
I will NOT apologize for being a beast at handling my own tribulations.
and no we cannot be friends, your kind is too weak for my obligations.
My mind has been miscontrued by the rants of the ones trusted.
Journeying back to this innocent mind; values and morals readjusted.
Free from the pain and the turmoil, allowed to be creative and just
encouraged to experience what I must.
You want to love, love.
You want to feel, feel.
You want to touch, touch.
But only for that one soul.
I shall not be as free for any bodys goal.
I am not a prize to be won, I am a soul to be mated.
An entity that isnt to be jaded.
And maybe I placed myself in those situations to be compromised but im a risk taker
Think whatever you suppose but I love my life, even through these nonpros.
In the twilight zone bungee jumping from my last piece of sanity,
Hoping itll bring me back to reality.
My body is racing against time && im fighting these guys with whom ive lusted.
and trusted.
No longer feeling
Protecting them way inside
where they reside, untouched from me or any other individual.
I lie. am I feeling you?
Maybe, who knows.
I'll just give in to my physical woes.
But no, that will only depreciate the value of me.
The person who Id vowed id give to the person whod love me thoroughly.
I'm in a war with a full armor cast around my body, unsure of whom i should strike,
but i'm tired of fighting. Anger, sadness, and restlessness fuel this passion.
But I know me I know whats internal and it's just jetting this inferno.
The flames casting an angry shadow but,
When I encounter the right circumstances, all the people that let me down will be fucked.
Im not talking about the hooker on the corner booty wobblin with each strut,
See the people that let me down wont be able to jump.
Theyll be allowed to sit sideways wondering what thee fuck is up?
You told me not to complain, so I didnt. I smiled :)
Just like thiss and I made it seem like we were surrounded in bliss.
But it wasnt, it was the fake bubble you like to live in.
But now you can reside in fakeness solo and thrive.
Because I am consciously subliminal.
The silent tiger you thought was dead, but is very much alive.


-larose.