My love line .

Seem like these topic is always being brought up when I'm telling people are guys specifically about me, so i'll talk about it. The reason I labeled this blogg "my love line" instead of my love life is because lol frankly, most of my relationships have been long distance online relationships.

Long distance relationship - you do anything and everything possible to talk or see each other even though your not right there.

Online relationship - you just typing. there aint no phone or anything.

So there is a difference and ima need people to open up their mind to this and NOT be ignorant. If you feel you are than you can vacate from my blog like...as soon as your mouse can click that X.

I started using the internet when I was like 12 years old, my dad let me have my first lil email lol. So that was back in 2003. I met my first .........cough...love when I was like 14 on teenspot.com and at first it was just like a friendship type thing but see me, I cant deny a cute ass dude showing me interest lol I meann I used to live where he stayed so I was like hey why not. lol He was the epitome of the bad boy I did not need. A latin king born in the Bronx deep into that lifestyle and he was also known as a supplier in Alexandria Va. Dont ask me what was wrong with me because I dunnn even knoww ! lol It was just so attractive to me and we was so compatible in other ways. I tried to meet up with him when I went on spring break in Norfolk (mind im like 15 so it aint like I can just go and do it) he ainn contact me whatsoever and when I was back in georgia he's gonna tell me that his car had broke down and all this other crap. And after that it was downhill from there and we just broke up. He was "back and forth in jail" but I dont know if I can believe that seemin that our whole relationship was a lie.

I got in touch with his cousin the other day and asked her if he was even real, because he did use fake pics in the beginning of the relationship but then fessed up and showed me the real him. And she told me he was and that he was in jail and gets out in about 2 years. I was like smh.

I mean I used to write this dudes letters and I bought him things that I was gonna give him in person but it never happened. and I held on to all that collateral until I got with this other dude...to show my committment to him and that I was gonna let my past go. I bought him a puerto rican jersey and everything. He told me he wanted me to wear it for him. People at school askin me if I was mixed smhhhh. lmao ! had me lookin like a fool man, but its whatever.

And I mean I dated around and stuff, caked up with different dudes but none were as significant as two guys that meant alot to me but still let me down TREMENDOUSLY.

The second guy lol i met when I was 17 when I was like look I needa get off teenspot I had been on there WAY too long and I think I got anger problems because of that site lol I was on there durin my like late middle school n high school years when I was goin thru alot and like people would talk shit and thats all u could do, talk shit ! so i would b pissed alot because i couldnt directly say shit to no one lmao. BUT YEAH.

I gave him my yahoo and i let him kno the deal, i wasnt really lookin for no one but he was very persistant just to talk to me. he was such a sweetheart and it didnt hurt that he was everything that I ever thought was sexy in a man...he was mixed race, eyes changed colors, tall, football player build...not like muscles out da eyeball just big enough for me and i was like woow.....you like me ? lol

It was REALLLL good for a while and then he got distant and mean and rude. He said that maybe pushin me away would make it easier but it just made things harder. so yeah that relationship went to hell too. hes obviously moved on because of his current decisions SMFH !!!! and if u wanna kno about that just hit me up, das too much info to b puttin in a blog.


most people think that ive never had a boyfriend ever but thats a lie.
and this isnt everything, theres more to my love life and more to me.
so yeah, sometimes i regret everything ive done. i feel like ive wasted my love.

but i was wanting to have love in a smalllllllllll town where i didnt even like anyone
so i looked for it.
so yeah, and at this time now i still dont even like anyone. so its hard. yeap.



-larose.

ask if u wanna kno more.