Remember them B2K days ? haha

Girlfriend - B2K

Gots Ta Be - B2K



Why I Love You - B2K


What A Girl Wants - B2K

Charm School finale .

Risky, she's the one I hope wins. Even though I think they all playin the role to win some money lol.

& ashley lol I honestly think she looks like e.t and dat bitch facade she wears, smh i see right through that lol. SO SHE BETTER NOT WIN LOL.

And I couldnt find a pic of Marcia but I dont want her to win either, shed have like a big party and drink lots of booze. so ehhh :)

lol sex sceneee..almostt.

I was feeling...deprived. so i expressed myself :) lmao


I am scared of you and the power you have,
My arms around ur neck and my waist you grab.
I gaze in your eyes and get lost in your love,
You pull me closer, slide your hands a little lower
and I bite my lip. You smirk and slide me the most PASSIONATE kiss a girl could get.
I moan slightly because I know it turns you on and you pick me up and place me on the bed && turn on a song.
You do a little dance just to make me laugh; the night is all ours so dont go too fast.
I pull you in closer and pull on your pants
You rub on my body and then bend my head
"Gettin impatient I can see it in your eyes, but baby I want to make love to your body && your mind".
Button by button I come undone,
Kiss by kiss im realizing your the one.
You squeeze on my curves and Im whispering your name,
you climb on top and you do the same.
Your body is amazing even in this dimly lit room,
my fingers run down your body, even where its groomed.
I want it now and fast or Im gonna go crazy,
all I want is you in my ear saying aww damn baby [LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO] aww man haha.
You slip inside and I clench your sides,
My innocence is gone and youve made me feel, something so different something so real.
I play in your hair as you take your pace, the pain is there but I dont make a face.
As the feeling fosters and you get your strides,
I cant help but scream out in pleasure because this feelins too good to hide.
You pick up speed with every notion of ecstasy,
baby, baby, baby please dont stop sexin me [omgggggg]
You no longer hear me as you are reaching your peak,
youre going so fast and youre making me weak.
BUT IT FEELS SO GOOD && you dont need to stop.
The rooms so steamy and im getting so hot, its spinning and I feel my body shake.
Wait, wait.....wait.....

Im laying in the same bed, with you knocking on my bedroom door.
You ask me if im okay you heard me groaning the night before.
I look in your eyes hoping that wasnt a dream.
GOT DAMNIT WTF!!! WTH DOES THIS MEAN!!!

>_<
so yeah basically...it was a wet dream hahahahahahah .

Something I didnt wanna completelyy delete on facebook .

So Will calls me now, thats all I ever wanted when we was together.
But I mean, sometimes I feel like its too late.
I mean it feels good when we talk and everything seems in place,
but shoot once yu think things goin good things mess up so you never know.
Especially in my circumstance.
Alot of changes are happening for me but thats one thing I didnt want to change.
But now its kinda like I dont know because I was numb to feelings for a while.
So I dont know what I want from him anymore lol.
I love the kidd and always will but I dont know, who knows if he will bail out on me again?

Also, I feel like I shouldnt have to hold back some ish I wanna say to somebody in fear that they think ima be buggin and throw up dueces at me and just forget my ass ever existed.
If anything, they should be glad im bein 100 percent real instead of most fake asses these days. People so fake they dont even know they fake. Been fake so long it seems to be how they are;; FAKE AS HELL.

And then like, I been thinking about a person or two in my past, who I really didnt get any closure with at all. Whether it ended with them just not callin me no more, or them fighting with me and up n leaving, or just w.e reason. If I said I love you to that person, YOU MEAN A GREAT BIT TO ME. And ima always have that love for you. Even if I CANT STAND UR ASS ANYMORE. I cant say it enough how much I feel that I deserve some kinda.....closure to situations and it eats at me yo, like all the time.

And I mean seriously, why the hell would yu dogg someone who loved yo ass 100 percent even if they overdoin it. JES BE FREAKIN GLAD SOMEONE TAKIN THE INIATIVE TO OVER DO SOMETHING SHOWING COMPASSION FOR YOUR DIRTY ASS.

I swea lol people dont know how good they got it sometimes.
But its all good tho, because they aint got it no more.
And the next person gon appreciate it THAT much because ima give it 2x more.
So eff that.
Next month, one of my dreams will happen for me and I aint talkin to no one about it no more but god and fam, because they the only people that actually asked me shit and show concern for me. and bri but she aint on facebook no more.

all this fake ass shit in the world aint for me lol im sorry.
so if i dont talk durin certain times, das not me bein a bitch.
its just not in my nature to be fake and tell yu w.e to fit the sentence.
ima be real 25/7 ya digg.

-larose.

ps. me and will not together no more. so lovely :)

If you are a sun lover , south beach is the bidness .

<3




It was hot as hell though, I will say that lol

Life isnt like the books, sometimes there isnt always a happy ending

lol & even thouqh I tend to want to give up with the little battles in my life I wont loose the war.
I cant loose it, because thats the only good thing Im striving for seems like.
And even if I do, ill jes wander around in my own little world, trying to be okay.

Its true that even when everything seems to be going wrong, being happy anyways suppresses some of the hurt. But you have to go to sleep && you have that 30 minute winding down interval to think (at least i do) &nd everything comes smashing down. But thats when I talk to the person that has always been there for me, since hour one.

Maybe he has some unseen plan for me that I STILL DONT SEE, but I dont know. Nothing seriously suprises me anymore lol tomorrow I could be the happiest person ever who knows. But all I know is that, even when I was little every problem I had was so blind to me. I was the happiest, kindest, giving little thing out there. Gullible as ever. I know how my heart is, and I still find myself wanting to be that way but I cant anymore and it kinda hurts.

I dont know I just feel like too many dont realize how good they got it. I was born with this heart so I cant really relate to a self-absorbed materialistic person. So when I see gorgeous girls with no kinda heart whatsoever getting everything a person like me deserves, it makes me feel like CRAP.

And I see nothing wrong with guys looking at girls outer appearance first because thats what draws you in, but what if that one girl couldnt help how she looked. Maybe she was in a fire when she was young and was scarred for life. Maybe she had some skin disorder she couldnt help even she went to doctors countless times. That kinda ish can wear on your selfesteem man no matter how hard you try to be confident. But when you sink back from this new found confidence you have, you feel defeated. Like you arent being the person you should be.

THIS SOCIETY IS JUST MESSED UP. basically . lol

I dont mind going through pain as long as it betters my chance at something...worth fighting for. But I dont want to get damaged past the point of repair, know what I mean ? And I just feel like with every situation, with all this time I gotta let time take its course as far as confidence and letting love and friends that deserve my friendship find me, im getting weary man.

I find myself reading, and listening to music to maintain my head and keep my thoughts from being wacked. I just be wanting to express myself more and more but then I realized lol I aint got no one to express dat to, but Im not gon let my words fall on deaf ears. I gotta get it out somehow because I know I got a gift, and I need to practice it, or I will loose it. And if I loose my gift, LORD KNOWS LOL. That will not be very nice lol.

I have so many dreams and so many other things I havent done or witnessed. Life never seemed worth living so much until youve realized the things you desire to do. Yeappp, das all for now.

-larose.

feelings..my letter to God

God you know how bad I try to be positive and shine some kinda happy light on other people because the pain I feel inside I honestly wouldnt wish on my worst enemy. I dont want people to worry about me or feel pity so I try to be strong so they can see that theres no reason to give up on life but I feel so close to that God. You know every trial and tribulation i have been thru since i was born and u know my heart. You know im waiting on a genuine smile. You know my passions and things I crave for. I could care less to talk about somebody bc idc bout all that. It just hurts me so much that right now I should be soooo happpy but im not. Ive had this amazing surgery I been waiting on forever. and I am I really am, but if I keep on this path I am now, its all gonna go to waste and I dont want that to happen lord ive come SOOOO FAR. Trying to not stress and keep my skin clear and keep from emotional eating but its so not helping. No one is even trying to be there for me :( i jes wanna run home to my family and cry i really do. I never did wrong to nobody to be so sad like this. Im jes so overwhelmed right now I cant even try to write how im feelin right now. Im so broken its fkn ridiculous. sorry to who ever has to love me bc u gon have to try real hard, alot of things have lost its meaning to me. smh. thanks for listening and always being there..

A girl like me [A novel im starting to write]

My pen name is going to be Larose .

Hurriedly, I walked from the automatic sliding doors into the parking lot to meet my cherry red Toyota Corolla “Betty Boop”. My work day was finally over and the day seemed to brighten up a bit against the sunset. I threw all of my things into the backseat and lazily plopped into my seat.
“Story of my life,” I sighed.

I turned the ignition as my car rumbled to a start. Today was just one those bad days you dread when you have one of those good days you haven’t had in a while. My nerves were shook and I couldn’t think straight, numbers were running through my head and I just needed some type of serenity. This newly found confidence really is helping, but I don’t know how to deal with the extra attention. You can say that I am a bit awkward at times. The wind caressed the edges of my countenance and I try to bask in the feeling. I turned on the radio and the reggae music soothes my soul. My body moved with the beat, matching the bass perfectly. It’s not that I dread coming home every time I leave work; it’s just that I’d rather be somewhere else, if that makes any sense.
As I pulled into the driveway, my legs felt like logs as I lifted them outside of the car at an attempt to stand upright but I staggered, naturally.

sounds good so far ?

Update on my Orthognathic Surgery

So as you all know, I have had jaw surgery and it has gone EXTREMELY well. My rubberbands are off and I can chew and everything. Hard part has been not wanting to eat all the bad foods haha. I will admit that I have cheated and It has caused me to gain some weight but recently I have went back to my healthier lifestyle and Im loosing weight again :] I dont really want to post pictures (alot of them anyway) until im like somewhat happy with myself. I dont want to get full of myself and stop loosing weight you know ? I know I dont have THAT many followers but thanks for the people who kept me in their thoughts and prayers. It means alot :] Sooo no more mcdonalds are none of that bad stuff :) and if I do, itll be the healthiest thing they have ! MUAHz, later mi gente .