Well that was a kick in the ass .

Among lots of other events leading up to this and a comment from an anonymous person, I definitely got my goal in sight now. I`m always second guessing, always. But I think i`m entitled to that right, i been through a lot and so I get off track, A LOT. Currently I`m in college away from home living in a dorm with a roommate. A LOT HAS CHANGED. I will admit I am a little overwhelmed and I am still learning my limits as far as what I can and cannot do in order to not stress my body out and get sick again but hey, it`s my journey. I gotta go through it. I havent really been posting because I don`t get wifi all the way up to my room but now I am seeing how much venting really helps me and I need to continue to do this. Ima just say i`m try hard like HELL to keep my head up, it`s gonna be hard but I can do it. And I will use my talents to help me prevail in life and I will never second guess my beauty.....I can do this....