I`m mad that throughout all my attempts at like fckin caring for people in general. Female friend. Guy friend. Or someone i like , it`s always a fckin FAIL. big ass fcking FAIL . and it`s like what do I do wrong ? I care for people, society and all that. Always had a heart of gold. && I get shitted on. Yeah I have my best friend , but she not here . She not here to take walks wit me or to drive wit me when I need like to de stress . So what the hell do I do every night ? either CRY , or watch lifetime movies and CRY .
I mean i`m going through so much alone . and everytime i get sick it`s because of stress but no one wants to be in my life or step up and be that friend or be that person in my life i love and i been trying for so long for that and i feel like it`s never gonna come. I don`t wanna die because i`m stressin out over being loved.
mask off, make-up off. time to face reality and to drown in my tears....ugh. goodnight.
welll i guess ill speak up now. isnt this a pitty ... your so full of talent yet u long to be loved by others when in reality all u need to do is genuinely love youself. its a struggle..i kno if its not this its that, its always gonna be something...ive been reading your blog for a while now...not like stalker type or anything but i have a few favorites... but i just find it so unfortunate that i never can come to your blog and see improvement in your life as far as you getting to a point of happiness with your self and those around you... i still have faith that one day..this dark cloud of depression that has consumed you will release you and you'll be content ...not like its any of my business or anything but every one deserves to be happy ...i wish you well and by all means please realize that this is genuine sincerity i am expressing and just know that their is some one out there routing for you :) even if they are an random stranger
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WOW.....just wow. I don`t really know what to say but thank you. n do I know youu ? I have a tumblr and just posted something related to the advice you just gave. http://missfreebird.tumblr.com/
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