hopeless.

every day shouldnt be a battle every day.
i fuckin wanna sleep all the time, why the fuck get up if it aint SHIT TO LOOK FORWARD TO.
BUT FAKE ASS MUTHAFUCKERS IN YOUR FACE, ALL THE TIME. SMILING TAMBOUT THEY LIKE YOU.


DF I LOOK LIKE ? APPARENTLY A FOOL TO YO ASS BECAUSE YOU MUHFUCKN TRANSPARENT BITCH.

ugh.

I shoulda never gave my love away. i shoulda been smart about my love life and just never talked to no guy. givin my love away to these muthafuckers that lie ALL THEY DO IT LIE. THAT WAS MY LIFELINE AND YOU JUST FUCKING KILLED ME. TOOK IT ALL AWAY. you knew i was good woman and you abused that you did, all of you did. YOU FUCKING HURT ME AND I HATE ALL OF YOU. I DOOOO. CAUSE I NEVER GOT TO SEE YOUR FACES. I DIDNTTT. ahhh...


look at me, im all fucked up in the head and cant even focus right and focus on me to get better. BECAUSE I HAVE NO LOVE LEFT ME. IM DEAD ON THE INSIDE, DONT KNOW HOW TO BE NO MORE. DONT KNO HOW TO ATTRACT THE RIGHT FRIENDS OR NONE OF THAT IN MY LIFE.




I TRIED TO BE STRONG FOR SO LONG BUT FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK THATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

I tell myself i wouldnt do anything to hurt myself because my family needs me my baby cousin needs me BUT LEAH NEEDS ME, I NEED TO BE OKAY WITH MYSELF, I CANT JUST EXIST FOR SOMEBODY ELSE. ID HATE TO JUST BE SO UPSET IN MY LIFE TO JUST LEAVE THEM BUT I JUST OOOO idk, this shit is fkn ridiculous. my heart cant take no more of this SHIT.


i just cant.

i dont nobody wrong all i do is try and love ppl they drain that shit outta me and dont give it back....I DONT WRITE NO MORE. IM NEVER INSPIRED. I HAVENT WROTE POETRY IN SO LONG....................................ima stfu. im just idk. going to sleep now :|