Friday, February 19, 2010

A letter to my future lover.

Hey lover,

Here I stand, unchanged even though the world wanted me to. I washed away my flaws as best as I could for me and you. For me, so I could appreciate myself to the fullest extent and for you, so I could love you with every centimeter of me. I would love for you to notice the little things about me, you know the things that matter most. I want you to notice when I become uneasy and ask me why, explore my mentality before you crave too strongly for physicality. It will enhance the passion, trust me. I want every time we meet as one to feel like the rays beaming onto your body under the sun. I want the heat to soothe and spread over your body & take you into a silent state of mind. Where the waves crash at your toes and your breathing is in sync with mine. I want to know you for you, I want to ease the pain and try to wash it completely away. I want to make ur lips quiver when I stare deep into your eyes, examining your soul for anything I can help make right, because I love you. And I treasure your very existance. Because you were made just for me, and me only. You appreciate me when Im mad because I am taking a stand, you appreciate when Im sad because that makes you love me more, because I feel. I feel for everything and I feel for you, indefinitely. And when something strikes a nerve in me to wear im sobbing uncontrollably and you dont understand, just hold me close and tell me everything is okay. Dont let the world crush me in my weakest moments because you know how strong I can be. Allow me to rebuild myself back up again and then let me stand on my own two feet. All the hurt and rejection ive endured and became stronger from because I want to be your beautiful, strong black haitian queen. I carry the burdens of my ancestors on my back alongside mine but at night time when its just me and you...I will lay them down, just to be next to you. Make love to my mind and my soul and my spirit, fueling my fire. So in the morning, Ill be stronger. Strong enough that the pain doesnt phase me anymore. I found love, and I can live my life without any second guesses. My love, ill always be yours.

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