I just deactivated my facebook account, it was getting a bit too much for me. Going on there when I really need to be doing homework & just to sit their and feel inadequate about my life compared to others. And just to have people snoop on my life. No thanks.
This depression is takinq its toll on me seriously. I dont go see a doctor or really talk to anyone about it because no one has time or even wants to listen to it. I feel like because of my circumstances people arent drawn to be friends with me and thats all I want. I want my mind to be free of all these worries so I can crawl out of this deep hole im in. sigh.
Im so close to loosing my job because Im just not motivated anymore and I really need my job, I have to keep making money. Just very very defeated. Tired of making people mad because "all i do is complain". I dont even know what to say or do anymore because ugh, i dont know. Im just so tired....
Almost every person that I cared for the most left me and dont wanna talk to me anymore. am i really that bad? :( God I need you so bad, my life is spiralling out of control, im tryna help it but I cant :(
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