In complete solitude I sit contemplating things
My life is speeding up and I hear the silent rings
Important decisions need to be made in order for my success
Confidently I stand up and think thoroughly in order for me to rest.
I dont want to be some failure in the history of my making
When someone reads my story I want them to be relating
To me and my struggle and all the things that I have been through
I want to touch the hearts of millions Build a fortress ; Some type of pavillion.
Life is so beautiful when you have learned so much from it
It's like the pleasure forms up and spills over in abundance
Give me my blessings and make me appreciate life so much more
I can tell im going to be something in life ; just open up a new door
And let me enter and peak my head in
Embracing the new challenges and ill seek from within
The power and strength to handle it all
Trust me with my new face I will not fall
A new chapter in my life is about to begin
Thank you so much Lord ; Im ready to win..... :]
Authors Note:
This is just reflecting my emotions and how I feel about graduating and my outlook on the next 4 years of my life. Words are so beautiful ;; i love it.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Whenever you find the time [poem]
Whenever you find the time to listen to my needs
I'll be around but who knows if i'll be willing
To lend a listening ear for you to recite your plea
Inside my heart is troubled and shattered
Yes it has the illusion of a mended heart taped with clear things
But if you could see ;; im as broken as I can be.
Life hands me trials haha yes just like any person
Personally I feel like my hand had an extra joker
Some people were thrown in there and we became closer
And others were distractions to tend to my dissatisfaction.
My mind is that of a philosopher ;; I see past the usual
Call me emotional if you will but I wont mess with trivial
Once you have grown you shouldnt retrogress
Im blessed with a faithfull religion ;; therefore I am blessed.
All I say and All I ask Is please be there ;; dont lie in the grass
Be that friend or be that lover that you claim to be
Dont say i love you or call me sister continuously.
Because when I return the favor ;; itll be more than you ever know.
Yes ;; im a virgin to true love. A virgin to physical things.
So to that special one Im destined to meet.
All my love ;; shall be for you.
All these wordly trials I have endured ;; all the strength and passion ive built up.
Could only be for that one love ;; so give me all youve got because its all Ill need.
I live to learn and love.
Be real ;; or youre transparent.......
dont break a heart until it exists no longer.
-larose <3>
A piece of your heaven [poem]
A love so deep not even the illest writer can describe
When I reach deep inside myself to give you my love, from myself I have to hide
Because this love is too great that rejection would kill me
I dont want to damage this love because without it id feel so empty
So I keep what we have and treasure its existence
At least I have an ounce of your heaven, so baby I aint trippin
Baby? no maybe, I cant call you such a thing
I give you that title only in my wildest dreams.
See there I hold you, caress you, and make love to you nice and slow.
Our eyes meet, fuzing, igniting this fire that burns beneath my skin,
Every touch sends electricity through my body and I gasp needing air within.
But then its back to reality and Im happy with what I got.
I know you love me, but to an extent is where it stops.
Will I ever meet someone I love as much as you? Thats what scares me.
With every altercation tears pour from my eyes profusely.
It scares me the thought of my body shaking from loosing this love,
and this is even before the thought of us mixing blood.
And creating something so dear to my heart and wonderful to my soul,
Youve given me a child, to love and to hold.
I snap back to reality, damn there goes those dreams.
I have this sickness, of loving you but I know it cannot be.
Im your down ass chic, that will fight a bitch haha if she messes with you
and thats what I will stay, only if you want me to.
If not, like I said before, Im fine with the love you give.
I only want a piece of your heaven, and my heaven..ALL of it I will give.
**Yo i wrote this ish under 10 minutes and this was coming straight from my heart.
Too bad the guy that I wrote it for is an asshole and we dont even talk anymore.
We both got in an argument and just messed up everything.
I dont take anything back though...its how I felt so...**
When I reach deep inside myself to give you my love, from myself I have to hide
Because this love is too great that rejection would kill me
I dont want to damage this love because without it id feel so empty
So I keep what we have and treasure its existence
At least I have an ounce of your heaven, so baby I aint trippin
Baby? no maybe, I cant call you such a thing
I give you that title only in my wildest dreams.
See there I hold you, caress you, and make love to you nice and slow.
Our eyes meet, fuzing, igniting this fire that burns beneath my skin,
Every touch sends electricity through my body and I gasp needing air within.
But then its back to reality and Im happy with what I got.
I know you love me, but to an extent is where it stops.
Will I ever meet someone I love as much as you? Thats what scares me.
With every altercation tears pour from my eyes profusely.
It scares me the thought of my body shaking from loosing this love,
and this is even before the thought of us mixing blood.
And creating something so dear to my heart and wonderful to my soul,
Youve given me a child, to love and to hold.
I snap back to reality, damn there goes those dreams.
I have this sickness, of loving you but I know it cannot be.
Im your down ass chic, that will fight a bitch haha if she messes with you
and thats what I will stay, only if you want me to.
If not, like I said before, Im fine with the love you give.
I only want a piece of your heaven, and my heaven..ALL of it I will give.
**Yo i wrote this ish under 10 minutes and this was coming straight from my heart.
Too bad the guy that I wrote it for is an asshole and we dont even talk anymore.
We both got in an argument and just messed up everything.
I dont take anything back though...its how I felt so...**
Spoken Word Poem # 1.
My lips are sealed as I admire your beauty,
Its something about your style and countenance that draws me in,
I feel kind of stalkerish watching yu and feeling emotions deep from within,
Oh how I yearn for your touchh,
These feelings I have inside whether they r truth or lies remain.
Meaning they are possibilities that can become actuality.
That means the punctuality of my functuality of telling yu that yur everything I see and I gotta see moree.
I imagine great things if me and yu could be,
Yu know like that young love drawn together by destiny,
See baby boy I got this thing for you,
Pulls me in on a string for yu.
Got me hooked like a fiend for yu.
But my lips are sealed and I'm too shy to speak though words exhilarate me,
Inside I'm dying to simply say hello and I wonder if yur eyes brighten like mine when I see yur face,
Only my head remains low as I question my grace my poise and the little noise I make shakes my mind,
Am I causing too much attention is he looking at me omg I'm such an idiot.
And all the while haa yur focusing on something else,
But who knows if this could be real bc the emotions that I feel are based on anticipation.
So is tha right?Should my hopes be at height?
I feel an inclination that ur the one for me my mr right now,
An angel to pressure laughter from my lips,whenever I am down.
Kiss me softly as I fall into this emotion,
I'm going to marinate in this feeling and sink into your ocean.
Of care and love for me tha I never knew I could bare.
If only I would simply hold my head high and talk with you
Until then, Ill become this prisoner..of a love that never grew.
**Again the ending is ehh. I gotta work on my endings yo.
Its something about your style and countenance that draws me in,
I feel kind of stalkerish watching yu and feeling emotions deep from within,
Oh how I yearn for your touchh,
These feelings I have inside whether they r truth or lies remain.
Meaning they are possibilities that can become actuality.
That means the punctuality of my functuality of telling yu that yur everything I see and I gotta see moree.
I imagine great things if me and yu could be,
Yu know like that young love drawn together by destiny,
See baby boy I got this thing for you,
Pulls me in on a string for yu.
Got me hooked like a fiend for yu.
But my lips are sealed and I'm too shy to speak though words exhilarate me,
Inside I'm dying to simply say hello and I wonder if yur eyes brighten like mine when I see yur face,
Only my head remains low as I question my grace my poise and the little noise I make shakes my mind,
Am I causing too much attention is he looking at me omg I'm such an idiot.
And all the while haa yur focusing on something else,
But who knows if this could be real bc the emotions that I feel are based on anticipation.
So is tha right?Should my hopes be at height?
I feel an inclination that ur the one for me my mr right now,
An angel to pressure laughter from my lips,whenever I am down.
Kiss me softly as I fall into this emotion,
I'm going to marinate in this feeling and sink into your ocean.
Of care and love for me tha I never knew I could bare.
If only I would simply hold my head high and talk with you
Until then, Ill become this prisoner..of a love that never grew.
**Again the ending is ehh. I gotta work on my endings yo.
Untitled [poem]
I wonder if ill ever be able to love again,
I'm not afraid of doing it all over,
I just hope that me and him will remain closer,
The bond that we will share will hold us tighter than my rubberhand holds my hair see,
I want him to quiver at the sight of me,
His palms sweaty when our bodies meet,
See his love evident in his eyes that change,
Depending on his moods and I adore them,
I melt when I gaze in them,
they uplift me, and lay me down like he does when we make love,
Ohh yes when we make love,
Passionately so,
He holds my body tight and never lets me go,
As our bodies shake in rhythmic motions and the friction of the sheets create this magic love potion,
I can't imagine anything better,And my laces are soaked and I can't get any wetter [hahahahahhha],
See baby this is how yu get me and I feel yur every emotion,
I love listening to yu talk, even if yur jes spittin hella commotion.
So when I see yu talking about that other girl,
This dream and this love fantasy will stay locked....in my peaceful loving world.
*the end is ehh. I didnt know what to put lol
I'm not afraid of doing it all over,
I just hope that me and him will remain closer,
The bond that we will share will hold us tighter than my rubberhand holds my hair see,
I want him to quiver at the sight of me,
His palms sweaty when our bodies meet,
See his love evident in his eyes that change,
Depending on his moods and I adore them,
I melt when I gaze in them,
they uplift me, and lay me down like he does when we make love,
Ohh yes when we make love,
Passionately so,
He holds my body tight and never lets me go,
As our bodies shake in rhythmic motions and the friction of the sheets create this magic love potion,
I can't imagine anything better,And my laces are soaked and I can't get any wetter [hahahahahhha],
See baby this is how yu get me and I feel yur every emotion,
I love listening to yu talk, even if yur jes spittin hella commotion.
So when I see yu talking about that other girl,
This dream and this love fantasy will stay locked....in my peaceful loving world.
*the end is ehh. I didnt know what to put lol
Betrayal [poem]
Ridiculous as it is
Hilarious as it is
You have belittled yourself true this
how could you call yourself a woman but your running from what truth is ?
acting untouchable to feeling emotions and knowing the deal
If you were sista homegirl then you definitely should feel
Im done caring for you when you feed me lies
Im full muthafucka and its going to my thighs
Long time friend you are but if only one is trying then y bother ?
You lookin faceless at me when Im the one to yell and holler.
Take yur knife and remove it from behind me as quick as you can
This kind of pain is runnin deep and pulling me in like quick sand
Physical barriers holding me back from shit you caused me
But do you know ? Shit i dont know maybe , probably.
The scars are evident upon my body and I see them every day
I touch them and quiver for letting yu get me this way
Breaking friendship rules that shouldnt even be encountered.
WTF is your problem !! Have I even fkn matterd ???
I laugh off the pain and brush off the anger.
This wont get the best of me
Adios, Goodbye, Ill see you LATER.
Hilarious as it is
You have belittled yourself true this
how could you call yourself a woman but your running from what truth is ?
acting untouchable to feeling emotions and knowing the deal
If you were sista homegirl then you definitely should feel
Im done caring for you when you feed me lies
Im full muthafucka and its going to my thighs
Long time friend you are but if only one is trying then y bother ?
You lookin faceless at me when Im the one to yell and holler.
Take yur knife and remove it from behind me as quick as you can
This kind of pain is runnin deep and pulling me in like quick sand
Physical barriers holding me back from shit you caused me
But do you know ? Shit i dont know maybe , probably.
The scars are evident upon my body and I see them every day
I touch them and quiver for letting yu get me this way
Breaking friendship rules that shouldnt even be encountered.
WTF is your problem !! Have I even fkn matterd ???
I laugh off the pain and brush off the anger.
This wont get the best of me
Adios, Goodbye, Ill see you LATER.
Monday, February 23, 2009
I am complex. The introductory to me.
There's somethings that I struggle with every day but you wont notice with this facade (haha my rhyming never quits ). I am a lady with many imperfections but that makes me unique and all those selections.
- I am clinically overweight.
- I have a skin disease called eczema (&& I have had it since I was born).
- I wear my hair natural therefore I have afro-hair (still struggling to find styles).
- I have a really bad underbite (undergoing surgery this summer).
But I refuse to be a victim to life. Life is made for living and that is what I plan on doing. 2009 is going to be my year and I dont care who comes in my way and who tries to stop me. Ive come this far and I shall succeed. Ive been real in all my pursuits and through all the things I stand for. Im not a person to sit here and tell you im this and that and then go doing the opposite.
I CANT STAND THAT. Im going to try and get used to blogspot, but I dont want to post things people arent going to read. So ill get at yall when I get some comments !
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