So im here and im emotional.
Im alone, I dont have anyone to talk to.
I tried to get advice from someone I was befriending and got no where.
Because she doesnt know ME.
I felt so hopeless then because I tried with everything in me to get her to see where I was commin from.
But she was just like I dont know what to say.
And she has every right to say that,
but I know someone who knows who I was back then when I didnt even know who I was or who I was destined to be, would most likely know what to say.
Too bad they have moved on with there life....and im still here.
Discovering.
Alone.
While they flaunt the person they found and love. themselves.
I feel like im at square one and no one wants to help me along.
I cant even hold my tears back because im overcome with sadness.
I just want to shine and want someone to appreciate my shine...yet I feel stupid sometimes.
For thinking im someone great.
Sometimes I just want to cut ties with the world and just forget it.
My heart hurts so.
Forget my bomb ass little cousin who I love so much, I know she is going to be something great.
Forget my family who loves me so much but has yet to know the hell going on inside me.
I call Gods name for help everything and it helps me through but just the days when yu look back and feel like you have gotten NO WHERE.
[sigh]
Some days I look in the mirror and see potential.
Other days I cant even look myself in the eyes.
I just want someone to love me for me, appreciate my talents, my struggles and who I am.
And I know people hear this alot from people but i so mean it,
I sit here right now wiping away my tears of sorrow and struggle to type.
I want love so bad.
I just want someone to care...i cant do this...night.
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This is something that ALL people go through whether you believe so or not.
ReplyDeleteI've been sooo lonely before even though I had people I could party with every friday, or even who would call me on a daily basis.
Sometimes it takes moments in life when you feel like there is absolutely noone in the world to make you understand that in lofe you will always just have yourself.
That day will come when you are loved for being yourself and will never have to hide anything. The day will come that you will talk to someone who knows you and will be able to give you advice whenever you need it. But it will happen when it needs to ..
You're extra strong girl ..
thanks mama, i feel you on that.
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