The Chronicles of an Ebony Rose o01.

Preface

So i`m sitting here procrastinating pulling an 'all-nighter' with this homework assignment. I have my tumblr up, homework website, my blog site, and facebook up while listening to music. It`s kind of like I know I have to do it but my mind needs other types of stimulation right now. I don`t wanna be caught slipping so even though my mind is not on it, I know other people`s minds are and I wanna be better than that. Music keeps me remembering the Leah that is deep down inside that I miss so much. The Leah that has been pushed away because of the trauma I have endured that I have absolutely no control over. The Leah that knows love and has seen love and knows that in this day and age is gonna be so hard to find. The Leah that was strong and fought away bodily temptations and knows that one day she will be able to give her all to that one person that DESERVES HER and waited for her just like I waited for him. So sometimes I can`t just stop procrastinating, I need all these elements in my life...&& in the same respect...it puts me behind. Sometimes I wonder though is all this effort worth it, I have never seen someone put so much effort into everything she/he does and remain one hundred percent true to that. Sometimes I just think let it all go and just do simple things to make yourself happy Leah. You are so stressed out sometimes. Just stop and enjoy the breeze, and I do. But that would be discrediting my struggle and my struggle has made me who I am. So I would be discrediting myself. Can`t do that. So I keep grinding. I just keep grinding.