UGHHHHHHHHHHHH [skreams)

No matter what I do its never good enough,
I have told you time and time again but fuck it, I give up.
Everytime I see your face it aggravates me inside,
but I smile instead and force myself to think the love is alive.
Im tired of bullshittin every word I say to you.
So sick of this shit Im so fkn through.

Settle for less and avoid me like you normally do.
Laugh at my faults displaying them in full view.
Never addressin shit you know that bothers me,
What the fuck you think im mentioning this shit for,
My heart is black and empty!

Okay I cant focus on rhyming anymore so ima jes vent. I dont believe or understand this shit. HOW THE FUCK CANT YU SEE WHERE I AM COMMING FROM. THE FKN TRICK IS CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!! freakin delusional.

How can you be best friends with someone and steady talk shit about them when you get in an altercation??????????? like what the fuck. and not even care?? yo i hate her ass yo, i still aint over this shit and she got the satisfaction of having the guys heart that I love the most in this world. AND I FCKIN HATE IT. I DO. i hate her. and i dont like him right now for not seeing that and not even caring enough to talk to me about it.

My heart is black and i dont want it to be this way. i dont like them......................

Are you a hater ? Here is some valid advice : )

"That freakin tvs black!"

"ITS ONYX!"

lmao @ that shit :))

I think everyone can feel where this chick is coming from. I couldnt have said it any better !

Why keep long time friends close...even when they do you wrong ?

So im here and im emotional.
Im alone, I dont have anyone to talk to.
I tried to get advice from someone I was befriending and got no where.
Because she doesnt know ME.
I felt so hopeless then because I tried with everything in me to get her to see where I was commin from.
But she was just like I dont know what to say.
And she has every right to say that,
but I know someone who knows who I was back then when I didnt even know who I was or who I was destined to be, would most likely know what to say.
Too bad they have moved on with there life....and im still here.
Discovering.
Alone.
While they flaunt the person they found and love. themselves.
I feel like im at square one and no one wants to help me along.
I cant even hold my tears back because im overcome with sadness.
I just want to shine and want someone to appreciate my shine...yet I feel stupid sometimes.
For thinking im someone great.
Sometimes I just want to cut ties with the world and just forget it.
My heart hurts so.
Forget my bomb ass little cousin who I love so much, I know she is going to be something great.
Forget my family who loves me so much but has yet to know the hell going on inside me.
I call Gods name for help everything and it helps me through but just the days when yu look back and feel like you have gotten NO WHERE.
[sigh]
Some days I look in the mirror and see potential.
Other days I cant even look myself in the eyes.
I just want someone to love me for me, appreciate my talents, my struggles and who I am.
And I know people hear this alot from people but i so mean it,
I sit here right now wiping away my tears of sorrow and struggle to type.
I want love so bad.
I just want someone to care...i cant do this...night.